2012: If Not Now, When?

"I have waited
dined on ashes
swung from chandeliers
and climbed Everest,
and none of it's gotten me
close to this.

I've waited all my life
If not now, when will I..."

I am not one to start making resolutions...the end of a year had never been seen as the start of something new but this time, it feels different. I feel I'm at the age/time to make things happen and if I don't, when will I...

"We've been good
even a blast
but don't you feel like
something's missing here?
Don't you dear?

I've waited all my life
If not now, when will I
stand up and face the bright light?
Don't hide your eyes...
It's time."

Yea, I feel it's time to take risks on love, life, and living. Those kind of risks I would usually refer to as "stupid". Risks on love involves commitment, life - freedom, and risk on living involes responsibility.

"No umbrellas
no sunglasses
hell and hallelujah everyday.

I've waited all my life
if not now, when will I
stand up and face the bright light?
Don't hide your eyes...
It's time."

I know it isn't going to be easy...I never expect anything to, this is one thing I need to do for me. "If I am not for myself, who will be? And when I am for myself, what am 'I'? And if not now, when?" (Avot 1:14)