It is not everyday I meet someone who would touch me. Fiyin did. She was one of the few beautiful human I was blessed to know. Her name alone hooked me, Fiyin wasn't a common name [That was actually the first time & only time I heard it]. I respected her a lot but now I know I did not express it enough. Every time she knew I was in the University of Lagos she would call me, if only for a second to see. And most times I blew her off because I had the belief there would be tomorrow. Today was the last chance I had to see her, no more tomorrow. The luxury of procrastination had elapsed. You said I could come to Lagos Island to visit you but I kept insisting it was far from Gbagada. Where could be farther compared to where you are now?
No had to tell me you were gone, all you cousin had to type on her status was "Why take her?" and my mind went to you. I knew you weren't feeling too well but you told me you were feeling better. I decided to send you a message only to see the last message you sent on Friday, 20th of July 2011, "Ade, hwz yhu?" A message I read but didn't reply, a message I read but brushed aside to reply later. Another act of me blowing you off.
The only message I could send now was, "How are you?" I needed to confirm you were alright. Now I know I will never get a reply, but if you could in anyway, please let me know it was peaceful and describe to me how you walked down the red carpet into heaven's gate.
I will never forget I owe you lunch. The last time you weren't hungry. You said you'll be hungry the next time. Now I see the next time won't be here on earth, that makes it more special. I will never forget that because I will never forget you. I hope you don't mind as I share conversations you had. Like when you thought you were boring because you couldn't succumb to what people wanted you to be...
I was glad I was helpful if just once. Gisting till 3 in the morning...
Another sign of me taking you for granted. You wanted to know how I was doing and i wasn't welcoming. I knew that was the type of human you were, always checking up on people, I was taking it for granted.
And when you told me you were feeling better. Now it feels like you didn't want anyone to worry because you told Jumoke the same thing...
The last message you sent...
The last image I decided to use was your last display picture that used for weeks. All I can say to it is AMEN. We love you, and we will miss you. I know it looks like rain pouring from my eyes...they are still only tears.
:'(
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