I'm Sorry...To Whom It May Concern

I feel I owe someone an apology but the truth was I had no idea who. I do have a feeling it would be a female...it had to be a female. They were the ones I had low tolerance towards.

It could be my ex, the Last Nigeria Virgin, the last time she saw me I received a cold shoulder. It was in the presence of her brother and I had to just walk away. That was a sign I didn't end it well.
It could also be another ex I described in Bitch You Are Selfish. Thinking about it, I used the post to break-up. I could have done it in a more...professional way. Then again, I was pissed off.
There were many people [especially females] my attitude might have unconsciously offended. Thing is...ok I'm not going to make an excuse for my actions. Then again, my reaction was a direct result of their action.

I have a feeling it might be one chic I knew through Facebook since 2010 that I owe the apology. She was a poet, and a good one at that. We got close to the point that I knew of her suicidal tendencies, also her past attempts that ended with her hospitalised. We also exchanged PIN on Blackberry. Our 'friendship' was weird. I hadn't seen her, saw her pictures but no physical meeting. From 2010 to 2012 she had deleted me on Blackberry over 3 times and one time blocked me on Facebook. Her excuse, I was getting too close. She would delete me just to add another day BUT she made it clear she didn't want to see me. She got upset over a lot of things I update that were not directed to her. I remember one time I uploaded the picture of the world shortest man. I wrote as the status "My dick is bigger than this man". She found it offensive and deleted me. There was also another time I called a close friend fat...she was the one that got upset-delete.

I tracked her down in 2012 and saw her for the first time when she least expected. She was surprised but told me it was the wrong time to meet. We fixed a date for the next day but I didn't make it and still didn't call to let her know. She must have felt I was disappointed when her body size [because she was on the fat side]. She deleted me from her Blackberry Messenger once more without saying anything. To be honest, I haven't bothered to call.

I could go on and on about who I owe an apology but that would only make it more confusing for me. So I say, I'm Sorry...To Whom It May Concern.